What did I feel? Uncomfortable, awkward, distracted, dismissive (judgemental), wanted to be elsewhere or doing something else. Thank you for sharing your wisdom.
I am practicing mindfulness and yoga daily, yet when I call inward to myself, I am constantly sad, nervous, and disappointed in myself. No amount of meditation seems to help in the long term. I feel ease for a few moments after meditation, but no true change. Sometimes I wonder if I can follow this path on my own, or if I need to see an actual therapist? I’m going through so many changes currently, and trying to stay positive about it all, even though I am stressed out and anxious. I listen to Tara’s talks and meditations daily, and I know they get me to a place where I can ponder peace and acceptance, but it just doesn’t feel like I can make a true change mentally….
My health, copd/Emphasema/asbestos of my lungs. I was the bread winner, I was the one who could fix anything, do anything, I was the protector of my family an friends. Now I’ve become worthless even to myself. I hate how my life is, at times I hate life, I feel I’ve already died…just not good enough to even die. I’ve come close to death numerous times, in those periods, I feared death, when I pull out of the situation, at times I wish I could have died. It may sound dumb, how can I want to live, yet wish I would die !
I can’t work, and because of me, my family struggles at times, just to have something to eat. My wife doesn’t understand my disease, and refuses to be educated about it too. Most of the time, I’m sure she could care less. So ya, I’m not loved, because I struggle to do anything, even breath. I’m expected to do anything and everything still. I try, but it takes me to long, or I fail at the attempt. I’m tired most of the time, and that makes me feel like I’m lazy too ! I hate who and what I have become.
I’m so sorry for your experiences and I have felt much the same. When I lost my ability to work o lost my self, self worth, identity, friends. I also have so much pain I can’t get comfortable… ever. I don’t look forward to things, feel pleasure.
Mindfulness and meditation are really helping.
Carrie Hudak, Another Field, Bethesda, MD, USAsays
As I listened and watch the video, I felt feeling of extreme sadness and unbearable sense of being overwhelmed. My state of mind is one of confusion and depression because I can not sustain mindfulness.
Some degree of panic and confusion, but knowing that I wouldn’t be so judgemental to another in the same place… I think that’s a positive realisation. I need to think on this more even though I can feel some level of me fighting against this movement! Interesting thank you.
It was overwhelming how far that idea of regular kindness and self-compassion was, from how I actually speak to myself internally on a daily basis. Lots of tears, feeling scared that it might never get better or easier. But also desperate longing for that sense of peace and worthiness ?
I felt that I couldn’t focus. That I wanted to run away from whatever was causing me distress. I felt my anxiety both physically and mentally with my ruminating thoughts. I wanted to calm down but I didn’t know if it was possible in the moment.
I felt like my own best friend revisited the angry me in a past situation i was thinking about lately. The ‘now’ me sat beside the past me, putting her shoulder around me and consoling and making me feel better by sharing a laugh.
I felt grief for myself, because, foremostly, my parents never showed me empathy or kindness. Nor did many other people I’ve encountered. It’s been a struggle to learn to be kind to myself, when I had rarely ever seen it. On top of that, when I did see my parents (amongst others) doing something that might be considered kind, to another person, in reality, it never was. It was always self-serving in some way or another. The child in me needs love and compassion, and I’ll never get it from my parents, like I should have had. The only person I’ve ever really been able to count on is me, and I haven’t always been able to count on myself either. All I can do is continue to try to do my best to show myself love, compassion, and kindness.
I thought I used those very same words in an email to an artist, be true to your self. Yet I struggle with that. I can be kind to everyone but me. I get confused about the fact that I am confused about myself. Some days feeling a dynamic person and other days as a sleepy old lady that wants to sleep. How do I continue…..with trepidation. It’s too bad, I have much passion in meto share. Tha’s it for today. Goodnight.
Diane
I became aware of my habitual need to crowd my life up with many activities that are not compatible with a mindful way of life. The impact this has on the few important areas and concerns of my life tends of weaken my presence and makes it hard to engage with others who matter to me.
Thank you Tara for embodying awakeness.
Katie Van Horne, Another Field, Ojai , CA, USAsays
Noticed how before I’ve always placed compassion first when talking about the wings of awareness/wisdom and compassion. How things became more articulated when I could look at things more neutrally with equanimity a split second ahead and then soften the tone physically and emotionally more lovingly, because it was faced initially with clarity, allowing the compassion wing to act that much more effectively in self-acceptance.
All I could feel was physical awareness that
My neck hurt.
I’ve just recently gotten out of a 8 month bout of depression…it feels good to have energy and joy back in my life.
I found your voice very soothing, easy to listen to.
I look forward to hearing more from you.
Amy Cliser, Another Field, Albuquerque, NM, USAsays
It’s hard to do right now, to bring kindness. I am blaming myself for a relationship breakup with someone who is dear to me, and I can’t seem to get through the dense cold fog of blame, to the softest part of me that really needs my own kindness right now.
Beautiful when I brought kindness into to witness my anxiety, self loathing…the brittle softened… thank you! Everything you said in this video was felt and immensely helpful.
Looking forward to more ?
A wave of relaxation washed over my head, from my neck upward. I wasn’t feeling any one thing prior, there are many many pressing issues at the moment and my feelings are jumbled, but seeing myself as intentionally caring for myself was welcoming.
I cried and released some of the negative emotions I’ve been carrying around. I even wrapped my arms around myself and was surprised at how comforting it was. That was very foreign to me, but I’ll be trying that again.
Tired from struggle of what “I should do …. What I want to do.” I am okay being with this… Relaxing….. Accepting….. I am a bit tired of not facing my fears head on… I forgive myself, and I continue to explore options…. while having compassion….. deep breathing, relaxing…..
A softening
What did I feel? Uncomfortable, awkward, distracted, dismissive (judgemental), wanted to be elsewhere or doing something else. Thank you for sharing your wisdom.
It was difficult to stay present. I kept getting distracted. There was definitely resistance to this!
Helpful…will take practice! Linda
I am practicing mindfulness and yoga daily, yet when I call inward to myself, I am constantly sad, nervous, and disappointed in myself. No amount of meditation seems to help in the long term. I feel ease for a few moments after meditation, but no true change. Sometimes I wonder if I can follow this path on my own, or if I need to see an actual therapist? I’m going through so many changes currently, and trying to stay positive about it all, even though I am stressed out and anxious. I listen to Tara’s talks and meditations daily, and I know they get me to a place where I can ponder peace and acceptance, but it just doesn’t feel like I can make a true change mentally….
So true… it’s good to be reminded sometimes. Thanks!
I felt so much more at peace with myself.
I felt a space a kind of lightness in my chest along with the fear
That was churning in my stomach it was a kinder way to
Be with myself
Feeling of strength to continue to live well despite the medical challenges I am experiencing at present.
I felt an inner warmth
My health, copd/Emphasema/asbestos of my lungs. I was the bread winner, I was the one who could fix anything, do anything, I was the protector of my family an friends. Now I’ve become worthless even to myself. I hate how my life is, at times I hate life, I feel I’ve already died…just not good enough to even die. I’ve come close to death numerous times, in those periods, I feared death, when I pull out of the situation, at times I wish I could have died. It may sound dumb, how can I want to live, yet wish I would die !
I can’t work, and because of me, my family struggles at times, just to have something to eat. My wife doesn’t understand my disease, and refuses to be educated about it too. Most of the time, I’m sure she could care less. So ya, I’m not loved, because I struggle to do anything, even breath. I’m expected to do anything and everything still. I try, but it takes me to long, or I fail at the attempt. I’m tired most of the time, and that makes me feel like I’m lazy too ! I hate who and what I have become.
I’m so sorry for your experiences and I have felt much the same. When I lost my ability to work o lost my self, self worth, identity, friends. I also have so much pain I can’t get comfortable… ever. I don’t look forward to things, feel pleasure.
Mindfulness and meditation are really helping.
Sending f much warmth.
You are not alone.
Tracy
As I listened and watch the video, I felt feeling of extreme sadness and unbearable sense of being overwhelmed. My state of mind is one of confusion and depression because I can not sustain mindfulness.
Initially, I was sad, teary. When I asked about what would happen if I let kindness in, there was immediate peace, a welcoming sensation.
The feelings dissipated and I somehow felt calmer and more assured.
I repelled kindness as if os a weakness that will get me nowhere and embrace self criticism as if is the only form of caring for myself
I felt a bit of unworthiness and realized that I need to be kind to myself. I am a child of God too!
Some degree of panic and confusion, but knowing that I wouldn’t be so judgemental to another in the same place… I think that’s a positive realisation. I need to think on this more even though I can feel some level of me fighting against this movement! Interesting thank you.
It was overwhelming how far that idea of regular kindness and self-compassion was, from how I actually speak to myself internally on a daily basis. Lots of tears, feeling scared that it might never get better or easier. But also desperate longing for that sense of peace and worthiness ?
Pressure in my chest
I felt that I couldn’t focus. That I wanted to run away from whatever was causing me distress. I felt my anxiety both physically and mentally with my ruminating thoughts. I wanted to calm down but I didn’t know if it was possible in the moment.
I felt like my own best friend revisited the angry me in a past situation i was thinking about lately. The ‘now’ me sat beside the past me, putting her shoulder around me and consoling and making me feel better by sharing a laugh.
Nothing much happened, however, life is falling apart atm and I’m barely able to cope at the best of times… And this isn’t the best of times
Something hapoened. It briught comfort and lightness.
I didn’t know how to treat kindness to anxiety and sadness, other than cry.
Same for me ?
Thank you for the video. I have tears not enough to have a good cry but tears. My breath became deeper too.
My shoulders, neck and head physically lifted as I thought about being kinder to myself
Thank you this was a really helpful x
It was a relief that I had permission to actually address and acknowledge my own fears. I could finally see how to help myself.
What transpired was a growling compassion for my self & a willingness to keep learning how to be more self-driving.
A sense of peace and a lightening in my spirit.
I felt grief for myself, because, foremostly, my parents never showed me empathy or kindness. Nor did many other people I’ve encountered. It’s been a struggle to learn to be kind to myself, when I had rarely ever seen it. On top of that, when I did see my parents (amongst others) doing something that might be considered kind, to another person, in reality, it never was. It was always self-serving in some way or another. The child in me needs love and compassion, and I’ll never get it from my parents, like I should have had. The only person I’ve ever really been able to count on is me, and I haven’t always been able to count on myself either. All I can do is continue to try to do my best to show myself love, compassion, and kindness.
I thought I used those very same words in an email to an artist, be true to your self. Yet I struggle with that. I can be kind to everyone but me. I get confused about the fact that I am confused about myself. Some days feeling a dynamic person and other days as a sleepy old lady that wants to sleep. How do I continue…..with trepidation. It’s too bad, I have much passion in meto share. Tha’s it for today. Goodnight.
Diane
Judgement and self expectations re-asserting. Fear, confusion, but willingness to try to improve my situation. I will spend some time with this.
Tears and Joy.
I began to feel a slight shift in my thinking and gained some understanding And recognition of moods
I became aware of my habitual need to crowd my life up with many activities that are not compatible with a mindful way of life. The impact this has on the few important areas and concerns of my life tends of weaken my presence and makes it hard to engage with others who matter to me.
Thank you Tara for embodying awakeness.
Noticed how before I’ve always placed compassion first when talking about the wings of awareness/wisdom and compassion. How things became more articulated when I could look at things more neutrally with equanimity a split second ahead and then soften the tone physically and emotionally more lovingly, because it was faced initially with clarity, allowing the compassion wing to act that much more effectively in self-acceptance.
I started to feel a little less uptight, a little more at ease, and a little glimmer of self-compassion.
All I could feel was physical awareness that
My neck hurt.
I’ve just recently gotten out of a 8 month bout of depression…it feels good to have energy and joy back in my life.
I found your voice very soothing, easy to listen to.
I look forward to hearing more from you.
Almost immediately I felt loved. A warm flow of comforting love washed over me.
It’s hard to do right now, to bring kindness. I am blaming myself for a relationship breakup with someone who is dear to me, and I can’t seem to get through the dense cold fog of blame, to the softest part of me that really needs my own kindness right now.
I felt my breathing slow down and my insides relax as I offered self-compassion. Thank you, Tara.
I put myself, as you said, into the role of a friend, and started to think of how to understand the whys and hows of the feelings.
I try to bring kindness to each person I meet or talk to each day. This brings feelings of goodness to and to them.
Beautiful when I brought kindness into to witness my anxiety, self loathing…the brittle softened… thank you! Everything you said in this video was felt and immensely helpful.
Looking forward to more ?
A wave of relaxation washed over my head, from my neck upward. I wasn’t feeling any one thing prior, there are many many pressing issues at the moment and my feelings are jumbled, but seeing myself as intentionally caring for myself was welcoming.
I’ll have to try this again tomorrow.
I cried and released some of the negative emotions I’ve been carrying around. I even wrapped my arms around myself and was surprised at how comforting it was. That was very foreign to me, but I’ll be trying that again.
I didn’t believe in the kindness I was offering myself…didn’t feel real.
Tired from struggle of what “I should do …. What I want to do.” I am okay being with this… Relaxing….. Accepting….. I am a bit tired of not facing my fears head on… I forgive myself, and I continue to explore options…. while having compassion….. deep breathing, relaxing…..
My kindness revealed itself as patience. Not having to rush through this video, to allow the experience and be happy in it (grateful?).